Dear Forgotten Husband,
I know things have changed and that it seems like you're my last priority these days.
In the mornings, your kiss goodbye comes when I’m grumpy and groggy from a night of nursing the baby, and am clinging to my last moments of sleep before breakfast demands begin.
While we used to text and check-in on each other throughout the day, you now hardly hear from me as I’m too busy changing diapers and managing tantrums.
By the evening, I’m tired and disheveled. The house is a mess, the kids have worn down my patience and I’m desperate for your help. Once everyone is asleep and the house is finally silent, your need for affection and attention is often met with frustration. I’ve been talked to and touched all day and I’m desperate for a moment to myself. A moment BY myself.
Life has changed from those days that it was just you and me. Long gone are the romantic gestures, the exciting date nights and the lackadaisical mornings. Our conversations are interrupted by little voices and our arms are busy with piggyback rides and comforting cuddles.
But while things may not be the same for us, I hope you don't think it means that I don't love you.
I hope you see the teary shine in my eyes when our children run screaming with joy to greet you at the door.
I hope you see just how big I smile when we witness a new milestone, or how hard I laugh when we’re all playing a goofy game together.
I hope you feel my heart double when we manage to steal a hug and those eager arms immediately start reaching up to join us.
While I’m not solely yours anymore, it's because I'm busy with the beautiful little family you've given me and, though it may be less obvious, I love you now more than ever. These chaotic days and sleepless nights are crazy, but they're full of moments I'll reminisce about forever.
And one day, when the kids are gone and this phase of our life has ended, it WILL be just the two of us again. We won't be the same people anymore, but together we'll be parents with a whole lot of memories. What could be better than that?